The weather is getting cold. The days are also getting fast. Before you know it it’s already Christmas. Ding, dong! Christmas is the highlight for most of us. Last year, month of November, I was too excited for Christmas because that would mean spending time with my family, meeting friends, busy decorating the house, inside out, listening to Christmas songs, going to church for simbang gabi. And most of all launching of kinaray-a.com’s website. That's why my vacation so special.

     It’s November again. It’s just sad to think that things are different now from what they used to be. Blue Christmas. Every time I go to the supermarket, I don’t hear any Christmas songs. As I walk on the streets, no Christmas lights. No Christmas trees. No Christmas ornaments. No gifts wrap in fancy papers. No carols.  No Santa Claus. No Christmas in the air.  No Christmas at all. I wonder what my Christmas will be and how I could delight myself. (have yourself a merry little christmas, let your heart be light...) 

     The word Christmas is big deal to me. It’s the wonderful time of the year. It means a lot of things and celebrated for many reasons. But what is really the purpose of this festival. I’ve been drafting this for hours now coz it may be hard somehow in my part talking about the real meaning of this season. This may mean forgiveness as they’ve been saying in the chatbox or give love on Christmas day. It’s not easy to forgive people who have hurt us. It’s not easy to love and trust again once you’ve lost it. (kumbaga “there’s no sugar.”) But this is the essence of it and no matter how hard it is I will initiate it. I will try. Be in peace with those people who have troubled us. Be in peace with those people I have hurt too. Forgive and be forgiven. Love unconditionally and don’t expect anything in return. No “what ifs”. Period.

     I am not losing hope despite Christmas is not practiced in the place where am at now. I am positive that the website can make me feel at home and celebrate any occasions that I’m missing. Even in my absence at home and upcoming celebration of the website's anniversary during this December, I know I still wouldn’t miss a thing, I’m still excited. (pero daw iba guid tana kun rugto guid imu nga presensya…huhuhu christmas won't be the same without you kuno bay...) I know that in this website whether near or far, can provide valuable things for each one of us, love, joy, smile, laughter, friendship and forgiveness.

     Now Christmas wouldn’t really be blue after all.