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Posted by Amerose Mondejar Alejo   

nung bday ko I was greeted by My fRiendz in our SIte (Kinaray-a.com) xemPre its My First bDay na tlgng mdami bumati skin.. i can say na happy ako sa bDay ko pero nung day ding un naitanog ko sa sarili ko kung happy ba tlga ako..waaaaaaa..dun ako nalungkot..tsk.tsk. d pla tlga ako tlgng masa2bing totally happy..sa mga post ko nung araw na un lagi kong sinsabi na "I want to find the true meaning of happiness" actually un ung wish ko sa bday ko..huhuhu!pero after nung day na un dami pa ngyari na tlgng ang lungkot....kung sa work ko nman ok lng nman ako d nman ako laging busy..pero may times na inuumaga na ako sa ofis pero ok lng nman un skin kc ako nman ung klase ng tao na dedicated tlga pgdating sa work..about sa family nman ok din nman kc mabuti nman ung mga parents ko sa probinxa(eventough minsan my prob din) en ung mga kpatid ko msaya nman sila sa mga pamilya nila en ung mga pamangkin ko they are healthy nman en maku2lit..kung sa mga friends nman im very satisfied naman kc God gave me friends as in dami daming friendz..sila ung ng che2er up skin kpg mejo malungkot ako or may mga prob ako.. pero minsan nman d nila npa2nsin un kc masyado akong malihim na tao na tlgng ako lng ung nka2alm ng iba kong problema en d ko kasi dinadala ung mga problema ko sa work or kung san ako pumupunta.. i mean nak2ya kong itago sa sarili ko ung lungkot na ang naki2ta nila sakin eh masayahin akong tao..pero im proud na may talent ako na ganun..bi2hira lng kc ung mga tao na nata2go ung mga lungkot na nara2mdman nila at nka2ya nilang d un makita ng mga kausap nila.. basta ako kpng my problema ako i just pray and cry..after nun solve na..hehhee.. ok na ako after nun naka2ramdam na ako ng ginhawa..cguro ung tlgng ngpa2bigat sa loob ko naun ung sitwasyon ko about HIM..sinu si HIM?? bsta xa na un..im in a relationship na alm kong ngsimula ng di tama na pinipilit kong kinakapitn dahil uma2sa ako na it will work out.. lam ko nman na hes doing his best din to save our relationship en im still holding on..pero habng tumtgal kme prang d ko tlga ma feel ung MAGIC na matgal ko ng gustong mafeel..actually na feel ko na un sa isang tao na UNA kong minahal..pero wala eh d kme para sa isat isa kya un I just let go..naun kay HIM kme padin pero dahil sa minsan nlng kme ngka2ron ng communication prng parehs kmeng nawa2lan ng gana sa relationship..i know ung mga pagku2lng ko na tlga nman nka affect sa amin.. pero pinu2punan ko din nman un eh..un nga lng d padin sapat.. im still holding on the relationship dahil nsa knya na ung mga qualitis na hinahanap ko sa isang guy eh except sa pagi2ng madal2 katlad ko..pero xempre ok lng un kaso minsan nai2sip ko panu kung lagi nlng na ako ung dumadal2 kpg magkasama kme..panu kung naging malungkot ako??panu nya ako pasa2yahin??anu un di nlng kme mag iimikan??huhuhu dati nung una tlga i like him en akala ko i will learn to love him.. actually mhal ko nman xa pero hindi ung mahal na mahal..npaka sinungaling ko nga eh kc minsan ngsa2bi lng ako ng i luv u na d ko nafi2l.. im so stupid tlga..alam ko na npakabad ko kc nga pingpa2tuloy ko itong relasyon namin na khit alam ko na dpat indi na..d ko xa kyng saktan pero duh??!anu pa kya tong gngwa ko?? mas masakit pa to kpg nghiwlay kme dahil hes planning to marry me SOMEDAY!!waaaaaaaaaa.... db grabe..tsonga2 ko tlga..hayzzzzz...im hoping dat god will make a way kung tlgang d ako ung pra sa kanya..(which is indi tmang pilosopiya) dapat tlga magdesisyon na ako pero panu??huhuu(crying na)..basta i always pray na god wil answer my question/s.."WHAT IS THE TRUE MEANING OF HAPPINESS?"hope to find the answer someday...with the person i trully love....(sa madaling salita..d ako happy!!hahahaha!bka may magreact na di nsagot ng body ng essay ko ung title ko eh..weeeeeeeee)

 


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1. 12-07-2007 07:58
 
hi amerose, 
emotional stability (happiness for that matter) comes with age, the more we get matured, we tend to accept realities as they come. however, i would stress that happiness starts from within ourselves, we don't exactly rely on outside factors to make us happy. duro man jan "loveless" but they are happy. Love is more of giving or sharing a part of ourselves than "receiving" or expecting something in return. hmm, love is a many splendored thing. For love to survive takes two "i and u and not i or u". if the foundation is not strong, it will eventually fall out ... the next question is, is the kind of love you're in by chance or by choice? ... no matter what, God loves you for what you are. What you can become is your gift to Him. take care. 
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vicpjr
2. 12-07-2007 08:23
 
cheer up!!!!
Whaaaaaa!!!!! AAmmzzzzz... Art of letting go???? wheeeeee... Amz, basta just follow what your heart tells you to do. I know how hard being in that situation. U just care for the person u used to lovea and u don't want to hurt him because he doesn't deserve to feel the pain that you might give. Pero maintindihan na man ra pagdating ng panahon.... Wheeeeeee if he really loves you, he will understand. Cyempre unahun na man ka ran pinsarun ang happiness mo hindi ang ana happiness. I think he is a nice guy. Budlay pasakitan ang mga nice guy nu??? Pro u don't have any choice. That's the only way ang it's better to tell him as early as u can before pa mahulog kay sa buho nga d run gid kaw kagwa...  
 
We're always here amz ah.....Don't worry... Every little thing is gonna be alright!!!!
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sprakakZ_21
3. 12-07-2007 11:58
 
cheer up!!!!
Amz, ur searching of happiness will not end unless u cant let go wat u feel deep inside u..Happiness is about making the right choice of decision at the right time..If u dont love him tell him that u would like to end the relationship becoz its unfair for him to continue loving u wen the feeling is not mutual anymore..I will share to u a prayer from the "alcoholics anonymous" it goes this way "Lord, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,the courage to change the things I can, and have the wisdom to know the difference".just pray this every morning when u wake up it will really help u!cheer up girl!babae ka astig ka!
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0o_alterego_o0
4. 13-07-2007 09:21
 
cheer up!!!!
amz, condition it in your heart. Tell yourself that you need to move on, and sooner or later who will have to courage to do it. Its all up to you in the end. Set yourself apart and do what you feel best for yourself. again, i repeat, yourself - thats the only person you must consider. Just you. :)
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vegaslunatic
5. 13-07-2007 19:56
 
hmmmmm
:) megs napa hmmm ako hehehehe, anyway tama lahat sinabi ng mga ng reply sa post nato,its realy up to you kung pano mo ayusin ang present situation mo.... 
di ka magiging happy if u know deep in your heart di ka honest sa mga taong mahal mo at ngmamahal sayo, for me being happy is having a peaceful heart coz thats the time na you will start to appreciate whatever you have... and2 lang kami megs to support you having a friend to lean on at this moment of your life is crucial ehhehe basta kami we love you no matter what :zzz :zzz :zzz ..... 
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6. 14-07-2007 13:51
 
hmmmmm
ams....well wat can i say?tell him frankly what u feel..if u don\'t love him anymore then its of no use to continue ur relationship with him..ur just wasting both of ur time and it would be unfair for him also..love is a 2way traffic..always remember that! 
 
focus ur attention to other things (i.e. career,family) being loveless doesn\'t mean ur not happy!enjoy being single..hassle free..no commitments..u can do whatever u want! hehee!and i might say welcome to my club...toinkz..hahaha! 
 
as u said..u\'ve got lot of friends..that\'s enough reason 2make u smile...anjan family mo man! 
 
wara pa lang guro nag-abot ang para gid kanimo ams..u deserve someone better amega!  
:)
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