I never liked the place where I was born then.  Never been proud of it because everytime people ask me of the place where I am from and then I answer, "Antique", they never know where it is.  And so come the follow up question of where is Antique, which I totally abhor explaining.  I never liked it.  Not until, I stumbled into this site. 

It was purely because of mistaken identity than out of curiosity, I logged in and was happy to see my first ever write-up that was published in a national newspaper.  Hence, out of my appreciation for posting that article, I joined the website.  Plus the pulse of being able to do something for the place that I don't like was reawakened.  Maybe it was just there inside me.  Maybe I was not just really aware of the sense of responsibility for my province.  The longing to help was there, and since I was able to find the venue where I can put into practice the thing that I love most, writing, I was ecstatic with all of the things that I want to happen in the site and in my province.  I was dearly accepted.  I gained friends, a lot of them.  The type of friends whom you'll never trade for anything else in this damn world because they love you in the truest way.  And some, the fakest, who go around blabbering somebody else's life to another person.  Who talk and talk, yet not doing anything but give a bad name to this site.  I was furious when I first learned of those chatters who talk nasty and nonsense in the chatbox.  Furious, maybe because I really worked hard to help put up and give the site a good name.  Not just me, but the site administrator and the other moderators.  And furious, maybe because, the truth of how nonsensical Antiqueños could be is being shown to me, face to face.  This gives me a picture of how Antique really is, on the bad side.

The website became my playground for creativity.  I now love writing Kinaray-a poems.  It gave me a vast space of practicing my sense of responsibility, patience and most importantly, nationalism.  I gave up long hours at home with my family, because I know I am much needed where the action is.  It was all because of Kinaray-a.com.

I wanted to make a difference.  I hope I really did.  I don't mind even if the gap is big.  I didn't mind being given memos because of being caught by the IT opening this site.  I didn't mind if I stopped eating and spending my lunch outside just because of this site.  I can see that the members are growing everyday.  Two thousand and counting.  A lot of prominent and promising Antiqueños are members.  But all I'm really wondering is if all of us here know where in our hearts is Antique?

Did we join the site because of the chatroom?  Did we join because "wala lang"? Did we join because it is cool to be part of its group?  Did we join because we miss Antique?  Did we join because we're looking for boyfriends or girlfriends?  Did we join because we want to fool around?  Or did we join because here is a promising site which can make huge leaps towards helping Antique be on top of our region, our country and even the whole world?

Manong Manie asked me this question, "Where is Antique in your heart?" , after hearing my planned hiatus.

Whew! That was a good one.  I hope we can see the image behind the picture.  The website is a mere mechanism.  And if you have listened to your Communication teacher, it is the channel of communication between us, the members, and our province, Antique.  We could be the receiver of the message, we could be the sender.  Whichever way, it is mutual.  It is a medium of putting into practice, in putting into physical things how our love for our province could be.

I'm writing this because I lost my passion for this site.  The flame is dying maybe because of some things that I do not really understand and I am not that grown-up to understand them.  And hoping, that through this, I will be able to realize more and look clearly and change my answer to Manong Manie's question. Delete the second sentence, that is.  I am hoping to re-live that flame so that I can burn more, therefore, affect more people and help in making a huge change for Antique.

	1. 21-06-2007 06:33
	Take care always and God bless RA. Hoping to see you back here again soon.     I joined this site because of the chatroom, because I love Antique, because wala lang, to fool around and because I know I could interact with my fellow Antiqueños here.    Thankfully, I still have that passion burning in me that I make sure to spend some of my time maintain this site everyday at the cost of my own productivity, hrrhrrhrr. I believe that this site has become big and will become even bigger, I hope what I believe will become reality. Hopefully, this online community can big a really big change to our province, really positive change. Good luck to us. Guest Report

123456

	2. 21-06-2007 07:38
	huhuhu anne, my dear best friend... i would like to cry... we've been talking about this last night... why did i joined this website... jackpot lang in relation of my work...curiousity. for the first time ever in the history of Antique we had the coolest website.     you are on the top of my list among the friends that i gained here. if you can remember this website brought us together... this website nag showcase ka mga things that i can do, that we can do. i never had an outlet before where i can post my write ups and earn a lot of friends from Antique... this website made our world upside down, in our work, the time for our family, etc. para lang sa website... everything we went through from the very start asta ang website mag amo kaja... tanan guin overcome ta... we shared so many things together and man an anday manong ra kun diin ang sara didto man ang sara.. for better and worst guid kita...    this website will surely miss you, your dear friends will miss you and i will miss you the most... i will keep on huggin cloud nalang... i understand why you have to do this coz you are fed up of everything that's going on here... and that's the truth.    i know your complains, i know your heart, you know what's going on about me, vice versa. we know each other ssooo well. manong manie asked me the same question "where is Anique in your heart?" because if you are retiring from this i will do the same... i will always stand to our friendship anne.. but as we go along last night napaisip ako na hindi pwede ako na magpa exile man rugya... i couldn't give this thing up because ang magbantay nalang guid sa chatbox is the most that i can do as per obligations are concerned, help and for Antique since im already away and can't help you do this and that, go here and there.     for you i will share the same sentiments but i will do my job here. i have my way paano ko ikaw ugyunan sa bitter sweet na mga panahon nga ja kag panindugan ko ang guinhambal ko nga ra anne. i will always love you and i love you the most. God bless us!!!! Guest Report

psyche

	3. 21-06-2007 09:43
	huhuhu anne, is this ur goodbye statement? hope mag lurk kaw lang as i am planning to do hay ako man tak-an run man, as i've said last nyt. u r one of the reasons why na-namia-n ako sa site. anyway, there are many ways man to help antique di bla? sorry if i sound unfaithful to the site but it is true. if we do not think that what we want for antique is being fulfilled through this site, then we can find other avenues. parehas man dya sa natabo kanakun sa iri group. but then if there are some relevant issues na lang nga i think the group there or this site can be a good venue for it, te post ko lang e. pero kis-a sadya man mong kabay mag-communicate with friends here. garing amo lang ra as you have mentioned duro mga sabad kag mga labay-labay nga wara gid ti mahimo, or kung ano run lang. hmm better zip up na ko. will miss u anne, pero we can still chat sa YM and email. regards. Guest Report

Jigsz

	4. 21-06-2007 09:48
	huhuhu When I first joined the site, I was partly fooling around and a bit curious, but after spending more time, I have found out that this is the right place where I can practice \\\"public service\\\". I always long to join one because I want to help in some way to alleviate the sufferings of our province. As time went by, I wast given responsibilities, which i wholeheartedly accepted and tried to do the best that i can possibly do. I share the same state, which is my own \\\"flame\\\" is dying also. Why? because i expected too much from the site, and expected more after hearing it will become a oranization soon. That was my mistake, I expected too much, i went sour after seeing how things are running... and after i discussed it with a friend, it just been regarded as a \\\"norm\\\", because we are in the Philippines, it\\\'s a natural thingy, blah blah blah, as if there\\\'s no room for improvement... well it will take time for me to rekindle that flame, I\\\'ll probably learn from this experience... I hope ma ayos ang amo ja nga issue... Godbless us all... If we dont want to lose someone important, we might as well do something about it, I hope the rule of usefullness doesnt apply, and the only reason is that \\\"i care...\\\" Guest Report

ShaoZaltais

	5. 21-06-2007 10:44
	:) Anne!    To be honest, I first joined the site because I wanted to impress others. It was unforgettable because I started barking at the wrong tree (It's a long story), I was inviting a cat fight (Ano lang 'to... mistaken identity).     But as you get associated with the young minds and the brightest perhaps of Antique. You start adapting that sense of love that binds you strongly to the province. I have never felt committed to participate.     Disappointment can diffuse motivation but never hope. You're a very smart lady and certainly YOU can do so much. Principle will be gradual process for everyone. Guest Report

coehloean

	6. 21-06-2007 10:51
	:) “But there is suffering in life, and there are defeats. No one can avoid them. But it's better to lose some of the battles in the struggles for your dreams than to be defeated without ever knowing what you're fighting for.” - Paulo Coehlo    Do not miss the chance of being WHAT YOU'RE MADE OF.     Guest Report

coehloean

	7. 21-06-2007 15:35
	dat was so sad.... When I read the title of the 'latest' literature, I said, it's maybe 1 of the essays or poems that talks about sentiments of Antique...but then I was enthrall by the content of it..and holla!.....    ANNE, I really feel sad where things ended...The Objectives of the site becomes skewed. SORRY because am quite guilty...I won't further discuss the issues. I will just put words into actions....    basta ja lang kami permi ni Nang JUZZ mo a... GOD Bless U always and I salute you our little dear sister...    Guest Report

Louwezz

	8. 22-06-2007 05:20
	Anne?!!! 'nablos, the first person to be heart broken would be Fridy, Didn't you see? it was him who's apologizing for something he (i gussed never even know the reason),.just to let you stay and not losing you... you've been one of those intelligent posters, one of those very important person in kinaray-a.com...    whoever that person,and whatever that person writes about you,.. you know it wasn't true?!! why run away?!!! this is forum.. it is unavoidable especially in the chatroom. hey!! they're just jealous,..    You have all the power!!! Use it!!!    It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult.    Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat..    Guest Report

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	9. 22-06-2007 09:39
	Anne?!!! hmmmm WHERE IS ANTIQUE IN YOUR HEART???? I was moved by the title of this essay so here I am reading it but then as I start to read this post a feeling of ambivalence stuck me...I dont need to read the body of this post to get my answer on the feelings of the author, it really makes me sad to know somebody writing a post like this but deep in her heart as she says she hate antique... the beloved province of us all....for me its very important to trace your roots for your roots speaks a lot about WHO YOU ARE,if other people ask you where antique is then proudly show to them where it is, show to them not only in words but in your actions how a REAL ANTIQUENIA IS, make them see through you how proud you are of being an ANTIQUENIA... but then as what the author implies about her feelings for ANTIQUE IN GENERAL if I am the other person i will not be interested to know further where antique is, im just a half antiquenia, why half for im not born in antique but my dad is a true blooded antiquenio but then im always proud to say that IM AN ANTIQUENIA for in my heart of hearts I AM...as what the author says alot of people dont know where antique is but then you cant blame them for in reality a lot of people dont know a lot of things about PHILIPPINES in generel, all you have to do is give them info about antique and make ANTIQUE proud for in doing so it really shows your concern to OUR BELOVED PROVICE....ANTIQUE Guest Report

chrised

	10. 22-06-2007 09:58
	well im here again this time i wanna say something about the body of this essay...for me it shows a lot of sentiments????hehehehhee sentiments of the author hmmmmm... well if i read this right it speaks about dissapointment and failure, life in general is full of this it depends on us how we tuckle issues and feelings like this, for they said its not important how you fall but how you stand up again and recover your crumpled emotions...i joined this site out of curiosity for somebody invited me, the first time i joined the chatroom i felt IM FINALLY HOME... i cant explaine it but thats how i really felt that time for everyone is so kind and sweet..being in the chatroom for firt timers like me is like im in a chaos for your dealing with people you dont know personally you have to read behind the lines or just accept the remark as it is,you dont have to be so idealistic about the flow of the topic in the chatroom for any topic will do and in the first place theirs no rules as to what kind of topic ryt so we need to adapt, just go with the flow as long as its just a general topic if you dont want what their talking you have two options, go out of the chatroom or you can PM the person concerned for we cant pls everydoby esp person we dont know personally, about the authors effort to help put up this site were all very glad about it, face the battle dont just let your sacrifices be worthless, its normal to face this kind of problem, you should expect the worst for by doing so you'll not stumble in the first blow... goodluck.. Guest Report

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	11. 22-06-2007 11:27
	well I don\'t know if I still have a right to write my comment or if I still have the guts to visit the chatbox. I used to love this website... I mean I love Antique because that place was our living witness on how we strived hard from nothing. My mom loves Antique!!! I was really overwhelmed when I discovered this site. I have a passion in writing so I contributed some poems. Everything went out fine until I found out that there were factions existing in this site. I felt so bad and started doing things that are\'nt right. Talking nonsense stuff in the chatbox and even in the forum. I feel so bad for myself for doing this aweful things and I just want to start all over again. I guess nobody needs to go away if we start all over again, forget things that have put the website\'s name in shame. Whoever did wrong, just admit them and accept any disciplinary action that should be implemented. Im ready for any consequences for my actions.     I also appreciate the efforts and hard works that the moderators do for this website. They are trying their best for the members to feel at home and discipline some hard headed ones. Without them, this website wont reach this point of success.     I saved one corner of my heart for Antique. Guest Report

sprakakZ_21

	12. 22-06-2007 12:39
	well   "where have all the cowboys gone???"  I am not aware what happened... so many things have passed, I have been oblivious of the goings-on in K.com. Perhaps I have been away too long. I hold the same feeling as you felt RA. I was once so energetic from the time I started making my website no matter how crude it was 'til I chance up with Fridy who invited me early on to join. I left everything in honor of this marvelous Kinaray-a site. I said, all my aspirations for Antique to dedicate a site to catalize our people to help and contribute to the development and improvement of our province are all embodied in this humble product of love and dedication of Boss Fridy.     So many things have come to pass including all the nonsense brought by some younger members not knowing why this site was put up in the first place. Not to mention, some elderly people too... what a shame. Now, like RA, I have lost some of my vigor and energy ... but nonetheless... I am still here on the sideline, ga panilag lang. Antique is my home, it is embedded in the depths of my heart and my soul... I may have lost some eagerness... but not everything... I am still hoping the vigor will be rekindled...     http://www.encarnacion.r8.org Guest Report

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	13. 22-06-2007 13:53
	:sigh KOREK Donz!  kumusta run?  di ko gid malipatan ang chatroom hay te rudto ko bay kamo tanan nakilala  talagsa man ko ga visit dya hay daw nadura man ang akun gana hindi sa Antique kundi sa 'mga sabad a'    excited gid ko sa site nga dya when i first joined-especially kang nakilala ko si Anne being one of the vip's in this site-naing ganyo ako mag bulig amot because of you Anne.  te good luck gid kanimo.  ignore mo nalang ang mga small pipol nga ria hisa lang sanda.    dya lang ko sa binitz - Anne    Guest Report

taga_bakong

	14. 22-06-2007 15:33
	a challenge to everybody First and foremost I would like to tell all of you that there is no factions happening in this site. For anybody who think there is, I have no idea where did you get that feeling. I am not also in favor for Fridy apologizing for everybody. Why would he do that? What for?    When anne told me the other night about her plan of taking a rest from the site, Wara ako makabatyag kang kanugon. Anne will do better in anything she will be doing. Besides, wara man tana maghambal nga tana mahalin gid. She's still here within our reach... still willing to help. Ang nabatyagan ko kaluoy. Kaluoy kanatun tanan who can't even afford to keep a good person like Anne, Asuwang, Donz, etc. sa site. Who's next?    Abi ninyo ang rason kun andut kataraka ang site is not only because of those nuisance members. Kataraka man ang mga members who is good only with their words pero wara man nagabulig. Examine yourself and realize if you have done enough to help this site other than just being active in the forum or chatbox. Daddy Roger and I have talked about this and we would like to challenge especially the members abroad. If you consider this site your home, well, let me remind you that your nanay ang tatay needs money para sa darapli kag tuition kang mga bugto ninyo.    Anne's decision is a challenge to us all. Tanan kita may tendency nga matak-an. I'm not excluding myself either. Even those who replied here telling Anne to be strong... keep going... never mind others... don't loose hope... etc., etc. Pero kun kamo man maabot sa punto nga may inyo man rason para magpahuway, sarangan niyo ayhan nga hambalon ria sa kaugalingon niyo? Sa mga tawo diyan nga may ikasarang man, it is your time to fill Anne's place para padayon man gihapon ang pag-ugwad kang site. Kag ang padayon nga pag-ugwad amo ang flame that Anne, Donz, Shao, etc., might be waiting to burn their passion for the site once more.    I hate when a person dies and everybody would tell good things about him. So, when someone leave, it is enough to give him/her due credits to what he/she did best. But please stop encouraging him/her back with those sweet words or "pampalubag loob" when you yourself can't even do it to yourself when you are in the same situation. Instead, make extra effort so to inspire them so that they themselves will find their own way back. In that case, mas pag-un ang pundasyon kang andang pagbalik. As we always say, love is sweeter the second time around.    I admire others who's being honest. Ganun talaga, if you feel natak-an run kamo, just go. This is a place where people come, some of them stays, some of them go. If you feel like comming back, this is our home and you're all welcome 24/7.    For Fridy, I was telling you from the start that everything is not always a bed of roses for this site. Changes happens evryday and you shoudn't be sorry for that.    As for Anne, I know she will never leave. That's why I didn't say goodbye. She just want us to wake up and change for the better. At least for as long as we remember this moment and everytime we read this post. Pag nalipatan run diya, I'm sure padayon liwan kita sa atun mga kalokohan.    http://maniemjr.multiply.com Guest Report

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	15. 22-06-2007 15:56
	a challenge to everybody totally agree Guest Report

Animegirl

	16. 22-06-2007 16:24
	hayyy kuks... bulls eye! Guest Report

psyche

	17. 23-06-2007 01:56
	hayyy kuks... Although I wasnt born in Antique, my heart belongs to Antique. My parents are both Sibalomon, when we were young we often took our vacation in Antique where if not all, most of our relatives lived.I love Antique and the great fun memories that I have evrytime I came to visit.I found this site by accident and from then I am only too happy to join.Thanks for creating this site,by just reading in here makes me happy. Guest Report

fidgety

	18. 23-06-2007 10:59
	hayyy kuks... "Pero kun kamo man maabot sa punto nga may inyo man rason para magpahuway, sarangan niyo ayhan nga hambalon ria sa kaugalingon niyo?" -Manie-    It happens. Tuod ang imo nga sentiments. We all go through that stage, there are situations that will bend your only hope.     Kang nag meeting kita sa Greenbelt, nahuya ko sa kaugalingon ko because after 24 years, kadya ko lang naisip that I haven't done anything for Antique. You may hate all the "oh-so-good-talk" but when I met you all. It was a wake up call.     I still thank each of you for bringing that awareness. For the first time, I found out kun ano gusto ko. This site has given me a new life to breathe. A fresh one.     Guest Report

coehloean

	19. 29-03-2008 11:07
	hayyy kuks... i miss everyone here. Registered Report

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